Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Breathe

YOU ARE MY GOD
Anatawa
あなたは

CLOSER TO ME
Chikakuni
ちかくに

THAN THE AIR THAT I BREATHE
Toikino yo
吐息のよう

ALL THAT I AM
Mikotoba
みことば

FORMED BY YOUR WORD
Subeteo
すべてを

I’M MADE IN YOUR HANDS
Tsukurareta
つくられた

CAPTIVATED, BY YOUR BEAUTY
Anatano uruwashisa
なたの うるわしさ

FALLING DEEPER IN YOU
Ware o torae
われを とらえ

BREATHE INTO MY SOUL
Breathe Inochi no
いのちの

SPIRIT OF GOD
Ibukio
息吹を

FILL MY LIFE WITH YOUR PRESENCEF
ukikake ikashi
ふきかけ 生かし

HIDE UNDER YOUR SHADOW
Waga sakedokoro
わが避けどころ

DWELL IN YOUR SECRET PLACE
Shuno mitsubasa
主の御つばさ

IT’S YOU I LONG FOR (TO REPEAT)
Motomeruu
もとめる

IT’S YOU I LONG TO KNOW (TO END)
Ima motomeru
今もとめる

im a goldfish.

it's terrible to lose someone's number.
i need a phonebook please. hahas.
received a phonecall from my sec friend. nick.
i was happy. like a duh, lost his number n finally he called me.
it was so hard to contact him. always afk in msn.
so yeahh. got updated about the ongoing
stuffs. i admit that i'm living in the
fishbowl right now. not that i love dwelling in
my own paradise. but, i'm just too tired to entertain anything else.
maybe i just need a lil motivation from someone,
"comon eadelin! let's go play! let's drop all these fishing idiotic
assignments at one side. just a day. comon... don be soo lazy!"

insane.
life is gettting _________
or perhaps it has all along been _________.

i'm a nerd. DAMN.

Sunday, January 27, 2008

babababababababa

went shopping yesterday with my grandparents. bought a new wallet,
a pair of shoes and 4 outfits. great blessing huh. was surprised to see
nicholas and sarah back in church again. oh crap. chem test is coming up.
so yah.. gtg n study.

take away the sickness.

Saturday, January 26, 2008

yes, last hurt. no more from you. never again.

Thursday, January 24, 2008

wees. i love thursday. urghs. am so random

Sunday, January 20, 2008

When u're tired....


i saw my cute lil cousin carrying this basket and
i thought this could be one of the best presents to give in
this chinese new year season.
if u wanna make ur mama happy,
buy this 'lucky basket' home.
it can be a decoration in ur dull living room,
or it can also serve as a orange basket for visitation.
Invest in this cute lucky basket now, to make ur ang bao bigger!
grandma's artpiece -$20

not for sale

Tuesday, January 15, 2008

kikuu: eee, i hate effervescence
eadelin: i see...

*pause for 3 seconds*

Both:ehhhh....

eadelin:effervescence?
kikuu: eh..what effervescence?

eadelin: ya loh, what effervescence?
kikuu: oh no! u noe what i mean right?
eadelin: ya i know.
kikuu: the..the...
eadelin:evanescence?
kikuu: ya! u noe what i mean..
eadelin: HAHAHAHAHS!!!!
kikuu: must be muiz lah!! keep effervescence effervescence behind.
eadelin: hahahahahahaS!!!!
kikuu: hahahahahahas!!!!!
eadelin: thank God! is not jeffrey the one said it!
kikuu: HAHAHAHAHAS! effervescence
eadelin: evvvvaaannescencce
kikuu: yes evanescence
Both: hahahahahahahs!!!!!!!!!!

Monday, January 14, 2008

is exhuasting to keep myself smiling
when the dark valley seems to have no ending
what can i do to pour this feeling
out of me completely?


i cant catch up with the pace of life
stamina is falling, speed is decreasing
what can i do to make u believe me,
that this pain,
this tiredness,
this frustration,
are really the sore of my life?


finding myself in nowhere
clueless about the future
oh crap. i feel like giving up.

i have the urge to fall back
immediately
leaving everything behind
without a thinking

i wanna walk with this childish
thinking that studies are not important
and joy is the only way to freedom
ok, another bullshit.

energy-drained,
struggle with emotions,
obscure about the on-going craps
that people gave me,
why are all these happening at the beginning?

i wanna stay back
to walk like a princess

stop bothering me, maths
stop confusing me, chemistry
stop dragging me, biology
u guys r nothing but burdens.

leave me alone for now,
to mock at my own decision,
for coming here
to make a fool of myself.

don crap with me
becos i had enough of it
just give me ur eyes
and i will let you see my tears.
your hand,
and i will let you feel the lethargic beats.


come, fill me with your love

MY TY COLLECTION








Sunday, January 13, 2008

maroon 5

I asked her to stay but she wouldn't listen
She left before I had the chance to say (Oh)
The words that would mend the things that were broken
But now it's far too late, she's gone away


Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that


It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you


The taste of your breath, I'll never get over
The noises that you made kept me awake (Oh)
The weight of things that remaind unspoken
Built up so much it crushed us everyday


Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that


It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you


It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you


Of all the things I felt but never really shown
Perhaps the worst is that I ever let you go
I should not ever let you go, oh oh oh


It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you


It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you
And I won't go home without you
i don want to crap with u anymore.

Saturday, January 12, 2008

went to buy presents after tuition.
was alone. so i called this mr gentleman out for dinner.
this gentleman took quite long to come.
n he did not order anything to eat.
so i was the only one eating.
then this gentleman's friend came.
my pri sch mate.
ahmad.
the end.

Friday, January 11, 2008

advertising mac?
someone tried too hard to be a sparkling angel.
this is RANDOLPH.
it was so cool to sit on randolph's father's lorry.

LAME , I KNOW.
BIGSMILE!

i love this face. hahahahas.


countdown at my hse =)
try to find christmas =) victor, randolph,selestine,mao,queennie,me,jeff,hafiz.
the motion, again.

rando was so sleepy





hafiz's heart .



hahahas. i didnt know i was using video to take picture.
but from here, u can see what selestine was doing to the poor hamster.
forcing hamster to smile when it couldnt smile :X

i have no idea what they were doing behind.

maybe u're down with some dummy syndromes which i think is total absurd.
u treat friends like pawns on the chessboard thou thats not ur intention. face it.
u want a competition. and i'm sorry that i'm not interested in this stupid game.
reason is simple. i cherish my friends.
i'm sorry to make u think that i'm in for it, so
lets just make this clear,
i don compete in such a thing. u can choose to continue in ur own way,
showing me ur influence. but yeah, i don really care.
u noe how much i want to tell someone about this?
but i know it's gonna be insane n unbelievable. so please. leave me out of this game.
stop being so paranoid. not that im gonna do smth to da ppl around u.
like comon, is really sad to know u're like this. true colours shown.
my basic purpose is different from u. maybe what others have said is really true.
same teaching but different learning.
not saying that i'm better in the sense, but definitely not your way.
be sensitive. don misunderstand the essence of cultural mandate.
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Wednesday, January 09, 2008

clocked a timing of 11.46 min in today's 2.4km.
thats worse den my sec 2 timing.
2 cans of red bull didnt help.
am i fat? okok, i know u guys must be like
shaking ur head 'vigorously'.
but seriously, smth is weighing me down.
so disappointed with myself.

alright. i think my relationship with my grandpa has improved alot.
praise the Lord.
don like to make empty goals on the smarter card.
is like, whats the point of writing ur goals down if
ur mindset refuses to change?

and.. i think i'm fortunate.
to have u and u and u.
thanks for hearing me out.
it's pretty cool to tell u smth.
hahahas.

to someone whom i'm really close to.
someone has left.
but look around u. u still have a wonderful family.
a group of faithful friends n God.
i'm sorry that i cant be there for u ,always, physically.
but please please, rmb!
i care for u ok?
i know what u're going thru now.
another is lying on the bed but
prayers work wonder! dont forget.
lean on God. for his support. trust him for everything ok?

lethargic me.

Tuesday, January 08, 2008




about 17 JC1s turned up ytd.
chungcheng boy caught my attention during the first game.
he was so good at finding the route.
besides that, he was once from track and field.
but the funny thing is, i had never seen him during the
combined sports meet :X
next is douglas from VS. he loves to ask questions.
when, what, why, how, who..
so many questions larhs.
not a bad thing thou. just wondering why he got so many questions.
hahas.
and to this anglican guy,
track and field is a better choice den hockey!
u made the right choice, hahahas.
sorry jeffrey:X
all in all, theres only 3 girls
for goodness sake.
all put 800m.
honestly, they don look like they have the
stamina and speed for 800m.
i hope i'm wrong.
at least i'm not running alone this time.

Saturday, January 05, 2008

cca recruitment. i'm so gonna make it bigger to attract the orientation 2 batch.

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today went to watch movie with mao, jeff, kikuu n victor. queenie ps :(
alien VS predator- 3 stars.
is time to study!!!!